Today has been fantastic (if rather tiring!).
We had our family golf day which is where mostly the men play golf and the women sit, drink and chat (and I ‘play’ photographer).
And it was lovely.
It gave me a complete day away from this pity party of one and focus on something else.
I also had the realisation that our baby wasn’t just ours. It was our parents’, our siblings’ and our close family friends’. Sure they don’t feel the constant pain but they do share in our sadness.
I would do anything to shelter them from the pain or make them happy.
I want to feel this happy each day and not worry about the sadness of seeing pregnant women on TV or hear people talk about babies.