Today we hit 33 weeks. It also feels like I’ve hit a wall. I do not want to be going to work.
Perhaps that’s due to a number of things and not just pregnancy.
Today would have been my grandad’s birthday. He would have loved to be involved in becoming a great-grandad. It’s sad that he’s just one of many who would have been enjoying this moment with us but he’s not.
And then I come to the main reason why I’m more than a bit tearful today (and want to lock myself away from everyone). Today was baby no.1’s due date. 6 January. And I don’t quite know how to be today. I’m sad at the life that never got to be, but I should also be taking this moment to be thankful for the baby growing in my belly that has gotten to 33 weeks.
I’m sure today will be a rollercoaster of emotions. Let’s hope the baby in my belly gives me lots of kicks and rolls of reassurance to get me through the day in one piece.
So sorry to hear about baby no.1 😦 I can’t even imagine what that must feel like.
I hope bambino has given you lots of kicks today and that you start to feel that baby excitement again real soon! x
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Thank you 🙂 Had a few kicks so baby is definitely helping today be a bit better. Hoping for a super active baby this evening
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