Today I experienced my first meltdown.
I’m actually surprised I got this far as I’m putting on a strong face but inside I’m really struggling. I don’t feel like I am doing the right things for Theodore and that just generally I’m an awful mum.
I’m not sure why my confidence in myself is at an all time low.
But today I cried because Theodore was crying.
I’ve just asked hubby to come home from the pub but I don’t know if he will.
Today I am struggling to cope even though Theodore isn’t being totally awful. I just feel terrible and my confidence has taken a battering. For some reason I’ve also been feeling really sick and I desperately need some help.